avril lavigne- don't tell me

You held my hand and walked me home,I know
While you gave me that kiss you were something like this
It made me go ooh ooh
You wiped my tears got rid of all my fears
Why did you have to go?
Guess it wasn't enough to take up some of my love
Guys are so hard to trust

Did I not tell you that I'm not like that
girl, the one who gives it all away?

Did you think that I was gonna give it up to you, this time?
Did you think that it was somethin' I was gonna do,and cry?
Don't try to tell me what to do
Don't try to tell me what to say
You're better off that way

Don't think that your charm, and the fact that your arm
is now around my neck
Will get you in my pants I'll have to kick your ass
and make you never forget
I'm gonna ask you to stop thought I liked you a lot
But I'm really upset, really upset
Get outta my head, get off of my bed
Yeah that's what I said

Did I not tell you that I'm not like that
girl, the one who throws it all away?

Did you think that I was gonna give it up to you, this time?
Did you think that it was somethin' I was gonna do, and cry?
Don't try to tell me what to do
Don't try to tell me what to say
You're better off that way

This guilt trip that you put me on won't mess me up
I've done no wrong
Any thoughts of you and me have gone away

Did you think that I was gonna give it up to you, this time?
Did you think that it was somethin' I was gonna do, and cry?
Don't try to tell me what to do
Don't try to tell me what to say
You're better off that way

Better off that way
I'm better off alone anyway

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secondhand serenade-why

The buttons on my phone are worn thin
I don't think that I knew the chaos I was getting in.
But I've broken all my promises to you
I've broken all my promises to you.
Why do you do this to me?
Why do you do this so easily?
You make it hard to smile because
You make it hard to breathe
Why do you do this to me?
A phrasing that's a single tear,
Iis harder than I ever feared
And you were left feeling so alone.
Because these days aren't easy
Like they have been once before
These days aren't easy anymore.
Why do you do this to me?
Why do you do this so easily?
You make it hard to smile because
You make it hard to breathe
Why do you do this to me?
To me, to me, to me...
I should've known this wasn't real
And fought it off and fought to feel
What matters most? Everything
That you feel while listening to every word that I sing.
I promise you I will bring you home
I will bring you home.
Why do you do this to me?
Why do you do this so easily?
You make it hard to smile because
You make it hard to breathe
Why do you do this to me?
Why do you do this to me?
Why do you do this so easily?
You make it hard to smile because
You make it hard to breathe
Why do you do this to me?
To me, to me, to me...

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pergii ke tasikk buatt k.bndaa ..
planningnyya siii jam5 nyamppe terminal ,, tapy ternyatta saudara-saudara dikarenakann ujiannyya amppe jam3 jaddi molor dee rncanannyya mlaah amppe trminal jam6 :D
nd ittu bikinn tmen*my nunggu my sjam stengahhh d.trmnaal .hohoho *maavkaan tmankuu sayang ^^*

pas nympee mobil tmen*my mlaah pada klaperann ..dn parahnyya lagii padaa gga punya duitt .*halahhh ng.rpotiinn -.-* yaudda akhrnya my yg beli makan bwt mrekka dikarenakann my jugga ikuutt klaperaann .hohohoho ..

slamma prjalanan yg mnempuhh waktuu 3jam *beratt bgt bhasanyya :P *mlahann curhatt*ann nd kangen*aannn ma bundaquuh .hhi*

pass nyamppe skitaarr jam10 malemaann .tappy udaah gdaa angkoot bwt nyamppe rmh tmenn yg mau d.jadiin sasaran penginapann .yaa dengan terpaksaa jlann deeh skitarr 500M . hufhh -.-

pass nyamppe tuu tempatt sasarann .lgsuung tepaar gga kuattt bangeettt .
zzzzz .

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bguun jam stgh7 .
rncanna mau ng.bubur jam7 mlaah gjaddi d.karnakann maless bgunn .
rncana mauu kliling rmh guru* jam 9 mlaah jaddi jam 10 gara*maless mandii .
ckckckck .parrah ammat yaa -.- .masii mudaa tappi udda jadii pmalass .
hahayst XP

akhirnyya b'klilinglaahh k.skitaarr skolaah .
ktmuu guru* .
ktmuu ade*klas.
ktmuu bibi dapurr .
ktmuu smua orang* bendaa .
sneng ... snengg bangettt >.< stelaahh selesaaii lgsg dee jln*ma anak* ..prtamma k.msjid agung ,,t4 yg paling ennak bwt ngademm . hhehehe ..tempatt yg enak jugga bwt b'narsis ria sii ..whhooo ..
hasilnyaa yaa lumayanlaah kaya gnii ..











hmmmpphh .. setelahh cappe fto* qta smuaa beli baso nd es dureenn d.t4 ksayangann .
sambil nginget* yg dulu* d.t4 ittu nd curhat* lagii ^o^ setelaah kenyaannggg ..
lgsg cabuut jlann* lagii .tp yg anehnya ma kota tasik tuu .bedda bgd ma yg my datengin brp bln yg laluu ,,skrg jaddi makinnn panass . makinn gersang ..hufh .
ittupunn ogah*ann my jlan* lg .pgennya lgsuung pulaang nd tiduuurrr lagiiii :(

akhirnya jam 3 an plg jugga karenna udaa mndung .
*pantesaaann taddi panass mnta ampuun X( *
sbnernyya maksuud k,tasik tuuu mau jiarah + silaturahmi ma org* skolaah .
tappi mlahh mlenceng dr appa yg d.rncanainn
ckckck .
yaa walaupunn akhirnyya jaddi jugga jiarahnya .tempatnyya lumayann jauh gtt,,tp ttep msti ksanna .manna mstii jlan pula .soalnya cumma jlan stapak doang .
yayayaya .
demmi bissa liatt makamnya babeh t'sayang ,,hiks ;'(
anehnyya nd begonyya kita tuu .spanjang jlan stapak mlah fto* ajjaa teruus .lumayan indah jugga jlannya .pdhal asalnya mau buru* gara* udah mndung nd d.pastikann bkal ujann ,tappy ttep ajja asik fto* .hahayst :P
hasilnya siih kaya gnii ..
















akhirnyaa pas kenyang fto* lgsg buru* k.makam ..
pas nyampee situu ..
ya allah ..
gga kuatt nahan tangis ..
bner* gga kuatt bgt terimma kenyataann .
klw beliau emg udh d.ambil kembali olehmu ya rabb :'(
kitta smua bner*lgsg diamm .

nd akhirnya stelaah mulai tenang qt pada shlat gaib d.kuburannya ,,
sambil teruus nangis .

ya allah .
mungkin engkau rindu padanya hingga engkau ambil kembali dirinya .
kami tau kamipun milik engkau ya allah .
kami milikmu .. dan akan kembali kepadamuu .
bukann kami tak ikhlas ..
tappy hatti inni sungguh berat untuk kehilangannya scepatt inni .
berikanlaah dy tempatt yg paling indah dan paling terang d.sisimu ya rabb .

my tauu .
pastii beliau sedang t'snyum dsanna .
beliau bhagia dengan akhir hayatnya ,,

sungguh ustadz ,,
kami merindukanmuu .
kami merindukann nasehatmu ,,candatawamu ,,caramu mengingatkan kami ketika kami khilaf ,,caramu mengajarkan kami ,,
ya allah ..
kami telah ikhlas melepasnya kembali padamu ..
lapangkanlah dan terangkanlaah tempattnya .
aminn .aminn .
:')

pas udahh bres smuanya ,,
kita smua pulang tnpa spatah katapunn .
bner*khlgn beliau ..smugga engkau memberikan pengganti beliau ya allah :)

pas nyamppe bnda lg lgsg silaturahmi k.klwrga beliau ,,
sdiih bgd pas ktmuu istrinya .
ya allah .
dia sangaat tegar dengan smua inni :'(
mungkinn my gbsa stegar dy dan sekuat dy .

terakhir k.rumaah "emih" ..
pas bgt lg d,situu .
dapett sms klw mamahnya mah'fha meninggal .
my lgsg cengoo .gbsaa ngmg appa* .kagett ,, gga nyangka ,,
sceapat inikahh ya rabb kau ambil kembali org yang kami sayang ??
dengan prasaan campur aduk my lgsg ksii tauu tmn*yg lainn .
my tauu .
pasti mah'fha btuuh my ma tmen*yg laenn .

akhirnya dengan segala yang ngedadak bu imas langsung booking mbl bwt kita bisa ke ciamis
padahal kitta saat ituu emang lagi bner* gga punyya duit :D
tappy emang harus ksanna .

akhirnyya nyarii mobil yang sangaatt sangatt terjangkauu .
hho*
untungnya ajja dapett .
mungkin emg allah udh ngatur nd ngemudahinn smuanyya :)

pas otw ..
waahh bner*gga kuatt tuu .
sopirnyya emang gila ajja x ittu maa !!
tau tuu jalan tuu bukan jalann tol .manna jlannya belok*gttu ,, bnyak bus lewaat pulaa ..
aarrgghh takutt bangett knappa* .
zz .
akhirnyya yaaa sampee jugga k.tkp dengann perutt serassa d.lilitt gttu .
rawr !
sdiih bgt pas k.rmhnya mah'fha ,,
jenazah ibunya udh d.makam.inn .
hiks*
gbsaa liatt dlu bwt yg trakhir x nyya .
:(
dengann perasaan campur aduk my masuuk rrumahnyaa .

pas liatt mah'fha ..
ya allah ..
ga kuattt :'(
sdiih liatt kondisi dy ..
my gbsa bayanginn gmna prasaan dy khilangan mamahnya ..
my belumm siapp ya allah ..
my gga bissa skuatt dy ..
my ma tmen*yg lain nd guru my ikutt nenanginn nd nasehatiin dy ..
akhirnya dy mulai tenaang ..
mulaii bisa senyum ma kita ..
sneng lyat mah'fha bissa senyumm :))

akhirnyya stelaah sekian lamma .
gga sdar udda jam9 ..
sedangkan prjlanan balik lg k.bnda 3jam.an .
dengann berat hatti my pulang ..
padahal pgenn bangeettt dsanaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa ..nmenin mah'fha :'(
tappy emg bsoknyya my mstii buru* balik lg k.bdg gara* adda uts .
hufh :(
*maav mah'fha sayang :'( *

pas udaah naik mobil lagii .
eehh c.bu imass mlaah k.rmh noviaan dluu .
*aduu ibuuuu .. plis deehhh kita capeeee -.-*
dengan terpaksa turunn lg dr mobil ..keliatann bgd expresii wajah yang tak meng.enakann yg keluar dr wjahh kamii .
haaaaa .. :D

eh taunyya dsanna d.ksii makanan ,,
uuuhhhh semangaaatt 45 d.kasii bgtuann maa ..lgsg padda nyengirr ..
hahahahaha .
manna dr siang gga makann .
yasudahlah .. dilahapp abiss tu makanan .
hihihi .

stelaah kenyang ,, barulaah d.mulai prjalanan kembali untuk pulang dgn suasana perut gga enak . dlm hati my ngmg " jgn* ni sopir mau main gila lg d.jlaan ??!! huuhhh smogga insaaf tuu sopir yaaaa"
ternyatta tuu sopir mlahh main gila lagii .
amppe bbrapa x mauu tabrakann ma mobil*gdee .
"duu pak,, mau bawa kita ke alam baka appa ?? saiia belummm siapp matti pakk"
tappi ngmg kya gttu cumma branii dlam hatii sii . hehehehe .
akhirnya tuu anak* padda protess amppe d.omelinn tuu sopir ,, untungnya dy mau dgerinn qt .. akhirnya bawa mblnya lumayann bner jugga .. amppe gga krassa udda nympee lg d.t4 ..
hufhh .. yg adda d.vkirann hanyaa inginn tiduurrrrrrrrrrrr !!!!!

pas nympee brsiin bdaan trus tidurann smbil tlvn.an ma sygkuu ,, yg adda mlah branteemm lagiiii .. ya alooohh ....."rek kieu wae ieu teehhh ??"
tappi emg slaah my siicuekinn dy pdhal ktnya dy kangen ma my ,,
*my jugga kgennn koq sayang ^^*
akhirnyya trtidur pulaslahh sayaahh tnpa pedulii apapuunnnnn ..
*pkonamah nu pentingmahh sareee :D*

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jam5pgi d.tlvn dy ,,ampee jam6 daah nyeleseinn prtengkarann ..
*widiihh -.-*
bgunn lg jam7 udda lgsg d.sdiaiin bubur ,,hwaaaaa senangnyaaahhh >o<
lgsg smangatt mandii .. makann ... siap* nd packing lgsg pulaaangg dikarenakan uts telaah menantii ..
huuwwhhh -.-
spnjangg jlaan dtemanin sygkuu trcntta ..
*tengkiuu yank :P *
nyamppe bdg dengann selamatt jam1.ann ..lgsg balikk k.cimahii nyamppe jam stgh3 ..
gtw tuuu udahh ittuu my ngpaiinn .
haaaaa ...
ingetnyya cumma sgituu sii crtanyyyaaa :P
yg pasti hari*ittu brkesann bwt my ..
d.ajariin bnyak hal jugga ,, d.ingetinn bnyak hal juga lwat smua kjadian yg ada ,,

ya allah ..
mkasiih masiih ngasiih my ksempatann bwt hdupp .
:)
mkasii udaa ngasihh my peringatann .
syukrann ya rabb :')

aarrgh !

aaaaarrrgghhhh ..

sumpaaaahh malessss bgtt kmana* .

zz .

pengennnya males*aan muluuuuu ..
manna laporaannn praktkumm anfismaann blumm beress .
ya alloooohhh ..
malesss bgd my jaddi jlemmma -.-

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bnyak hal yg trjadii kmaren* .
dr seneng yg gga ketulungann .
*mkasii ya syg ^^*

ampee nangiss gga bhntiii smalemann amppe pagii ..
hwaaaaaa ...
bner*unforgetable moment T_T
hiks ,,

gga bsa d.ungkapinn pke apapunn .
terlalu takuut bwt ngadepinn takdir ..
terlaluu takutt bwt khlgn dy .
gmaauuu . gmaauuu . gmaauuu .

ya allah ..
lindungilaah dy ..
bner*takutt bgd .
hufh ..

"akku sayaaanngg kammu sayaanggkuuu"
:))
jangan prnaah tnggalinn my yaa :(

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kamu tauu ,,

gmnaa khawatirnyya akku d.saat kamuu gga ngabarinn my ??

appa kamu tau jugga gmnna gga tenangnyya my saat kamu mrah ma my ??

my btuuh kamuu sayang ,,

jgn pernah bwt hati inni gga tenang ..

my tggu kabar kamu saat nii ..

i luv u so much :')